Sunday, February 20, 2011

Pertama Ramadhan

Isle dan Amani sibuk tolong Umi kat dapur. Hari ini first day of puasa. So, semangat sikit lah semua nak berbuka. Bila sudah masuk waktu maghrib, mereka jamah sikit - start with manisan, pengat pisang yang Umi buat tadi. Lepastu semua sembahyang. Uncle jadi Imam.

Malam tu lepas terawikh, Papa Isle call.
"Hows my darling?"
"Pretty fine.."
"Good to hear that."
"Isle nak balik."
"Kalau Isle balik, tak ada siapa yang nak jaga Isle macam sekarang ni. Dont u rasa macam tenang jer kat sana compared what've you got here?"
"Memanglah, tapi sampai bila Isle nak stuck kat sini Papa. I need my life back lah. This is so not my life."
"Isle stay kat sana the whole Ramadhan, nanti Papa datang jenguk Isle."
"Got to go. Isle nak tidur, nanti tak dapat bangun sahur. Bye, Salam ramadhan."
"Bye, take care anak Papa." Papa Isle dah matikan talian. Direnung handphone di tangannya - sejenak. Lepas tu, dia pandang potret arwah isterinya di dinding bilik tidur itu.
"Im sorry sayang, Abang gagal untuk mendidik anak kita. However, its good to know that she's doing well there with with Fariz and Nadea. " Hanya keluhan yang boleh diluahkan.

Bagi Isle pula, panggilan dari Papa tadi memang sangat-sangat dinantikan. Entah kenapa, dia sengaja cakap dengan Papa dia nak balik, tapi sebenarnya - tidak. Dia bahagia kat sini dengan Umi, Uncle, Ameen dan Amani walaupun Amani tak berapa ngan dengan dia.

Isle baring ngadap dinding.
Ding-ding. iPhone Isle berbunyi - satu mesej diterima.

- Dania buat pe? - From Iman
- Lying down, thinking of seriously nothing. - Reply Isle
- Tak online? - From Iman lagi.
- No mood. I dont wanna face them right now. Need time of my own. - Reply Isle lagi
- I see. So actually why are you here? Curiosity :D - From Iman
- Im supposed to back on my previous attitude and behavior track, like I used to be last 5 months - Reply Isle
- Rebelling? - From Iman
- Kinda. - Reply Isle
- Reason? - From Iman
- Ive lost both: My mom's love and ....dad's as well. - Reply Isle
- I thought you still have your dad? - From Iman
- Yeah, but he seems to forget that he still has a daughter to be taken care of. A teenage daughter that still needs her father's love.
- Im sorry, shudnt ask you in the first place. Are you okay? - From Iman.
- Sad - Reply Isle
- Dont be, cheer up! He maybe gg thru hard times as well, To lose someone that you love is not easy. - From Iman
- Thanks. Got to go, I need to sleep. Nights - Reply Isle.
- Naah, it was nothing. Be tough and be strong, girl. It aint easy to face all these. I unds. Nights. - Last message from Iman.

Lepas baca mesej tu, Isle bangun, bukak tingkap, duduk kat veranda kejap - tengok langit. Dah lama dia tak buat macam tu. Dulu selalu before tidur, dia tengok langit dengan mama, kira bintang, sambil share stories. 'I miss you mama, I miss you so much. Im so sorry sebab turned into something like this - something that you sure didn't expect from me.' Isle kesat air mata yang mengalir di pipinya.

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